I don't want to lose her. I want to beg her to give us another chance. I know the thoughts pass thru her mind as well but both our inner voices tells us that we can't. Mine is saying we can't. Mine is saying I'm not ready to be in a relationship. That hurts. that hurts so bad I can hardly breathe. we're at this crossroads in our lives and we don't know how to proceed. All I know is my life would be incredibly empty without her. i can't imagine life without my babyness. Are we impeding our personal progress by staying this close? Or are we simply soaking up as much together time we can before we move away? Still can't believe in a few short months we won't be living in the same place. We'll be living in separate apartments, leading lives independent of each other.
Can we remain friends and heal?
Can we remain friends and heal? Can two people who still love each other, break up and help each other heal? This is where we are at right now. The thoughts of moving apart in a few months is so much to bear (bare?) We won't come home to each other. I'll come home to an empty apartment and she'll come home to her cats. What are we supposed to do? Are I supposed to move into the spare room and live my life as if I were alone? My chest is burning as I write this. I pretty much have had this continuous burning in my chest for a long time now. I never realized it was anxiety.
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