Fuck love

Saturday morning. We are done for reals this time. She admitted she isn't ready for a relationship. It hurts that I've lost her again. It sucks that just when I thought we were on firm ground, the rug gets pulled from under me. Fuck her. She wants to just be friends. Well then we'll be friends with the same boundaries & expectations of friendship. I left the house just now & she asked where I was going I told her she's just my friend now & shouldn't worry about it. I'm bitter this time. After our fragile reconciliation, I gave it my all only to end up with nothing again. Fuck love. Love is pain and I don't want any more of it.